As I tried to fall asleep last night anxieties filling my mind with all the things I haven't gotten too because of sickness. I stopped myself- THIS WILL DO ME NO GOOD! All this worrying at 11:30 at night over what I have to do isn't going to help me get things done faster or help me fall asleep quicker. So I slowed my breath and talked myself down.
Just breathe! Just breathe!
I had a realization as I was laying there-
Most of the things I am thinking are coming from a place where I feel flawed, weak, not enough, etc. My first thoughts aren't all the brave life things I've faced! My first thoughts are flittered through what I guess is some sort of shame cycle rooted in where I was wounded as a child and where that root fights to keep it's stranglehold.
I know that a lifetime of belief doesn't go away overnight and there are no quick fixes. But truth be told I still am sad that my mind still goes there.
So I keep plunking along
Keep making adjustments
Keep questioning the stories I tell myself
And that's just it! The big one- Questioning the stories I tell myself and not believing everything I say.
If I take those moments to say
Is this really true about me?
If I take time to question the inner critic and withhold judgement about myself I can get to the truth.
And the truth is
I am stronger than I think
I am braver than I think
I am more resilient than I think
AND SO ARE YOU!
What are you telling yourself or believing about yourself that with a little questioning could be altered?
I AM ________ THAN I THINK
You deserve to know the truth about yourself. So go ahead and ask.